For a month, I haven’t watch any TV series, commercial, etc. And  I was so intrigued of the Mcdonald’s commercial that everyone talks about. The line “Ikaw pa rin ang first love ko” was stucked in my head so I searched it in YouTube. Our internet connection is kinda choppy so I watched the video bit by bit. And when they came to the part that the girl was introducing her husband, tears streamed down my eyes. I thought of those days back in my first year in high school. (I’m being open about this ha. )

When I entered MunSci or my high school years, I wasn’t aware that this is the stage where teenagers get into relationships. I was so surprised when my classmates were talking about how many boyfriends they’ve had. Being that innocent person I WAS :p, I didn’t talk or made comments about it. Eventually, someone courted me in the class, and I was about to say yes to him. Buti na lang! But I have to admit, he is my first (puppy) love. But I wasn’t ready to commit and until now, I value my days of singleness. And as I watched my friends having boyfriends or girlfriends one by one, and seeing some of them fall out of that relationships for some reasons, I am so thankful of the people who thought me how to love sincerely and whole-heartedly.

Every time I feel alone, I always envy those who got lots of people around them. I just realized that not all of them loves that certain someone. And even if I’m alone, I know that those people who are closest to me are the ones who loves me best. To enumerate them all may take me a whole day or days, but I’ll list my top 5:

GOD

Obviously, my great and amazing Father is the one who loves me the best of all! He created me in the uniqueness of His image and called me her daughter. He provides for me well and gives me everything I need. He takes care of those people I love and His love will never be compared to anyone else’s love for me.

PARENTS

God gave me 2 of the most wonderful people in the world. My mom and dad! These two gives me the physical affection that our Father can’t give for now. They taught me how to value other people and the essence of loving anyone even with their faults or difference.

FAMILY

My family showed how loving is. I was showered with gifts, money, and all the material things they can buy for me. But nothing will ever replace the values and memories they gave me. Including the way their love is for me.

FRIENDS

Yeah, I know we fight. But you’re the bestest people close to my relatives! You showed me how you love other people. You showed me the consequences and everything about teen life and love even if not deliberately. I’m most thankful of my bestfriends who never ever left me and loved me for who I am.

CHURCH FRIENDS AND ACQUAINTANCES

My spiritual family is also the best. With the best values, they taught me things about life. They inspired me to do others good and love those unlovable people. They taught me how to be kind and compassionate to everything.

I give thanks to everyone who loves me. Those who took the time to know me. I’ll never ever forget, that I should be thankful for those person who loved me despite of my imperfections.

…at kahit hindi naging kami sa huli

sya pa rin ang first love ko.

Hair color: I know it was black. WAS.

Eye color: I don’t know

Height: He’s definitely taller than me

Body type: Ahm, he became thinner, I guess

Weight: He’s heavy. )

High school stereotype: The good guy?

Athletic or smart: Both

Tall and skinny or short and toned: Tall and toned

Religious views: He’s a Catholic

I am definitely infatuated by Edward Cullen. I know very well that he’s a fictional character. But I am comparing him to someone mortal, who dazzles me as well.

Thinking about it, he is one of the best guys I’ve ever known. I won’t consider him as a best friend practically because I have a crush on him. And sadly, he knows but tries to be oblivious about it. It’s also not that easy to not help but like him more because of his perfectly flawed characteristic. I know he is aware that I have been crushing on him since a year ago, but he became very polite not to be mayabang or pasikat about it.

I barely talked to him for the last few months. And I have realized something that made me consider to talk to him again. If God would want him for me, then He will give me this guy at the right time. And if this guy isn’t for me, then God just wants him to be one of those people that will look out for me.

I’m very happy that I am seeing him this way again. Not the kind that I make iwas of him and try to alter my activities just to try to stay away. But it didn’t do me any good. I know, that in the right time, everything will be easier for me to understand that God works in super mysterious ways and that He won’t allow something or someone to hurt or harm me in the most unlikely way.

Yeah. I know a vampire should dazzle me.