I don’t know how to start this post. Its been a long time since I wrote and it is somehow very hard. I feel irritated because things are changing into something that they aren’t supposed to be. I am not used to this change. If it is something for the better, why wouldn’t I agree? But if it is something like this, then I’d rather be doomed.
A friend, for me, should be someone permanent. Not that I am not permitting my friends to not ever change, but isn’t it weird if some friend of yours just go and make him/herself your very own doggie tail? It’s very annoying and irritable. I don’t have the courage to tell him/her to stop. I am afraid to hurt his/her feelings. I haven’t talk about this with my mom because I think that she will just side with my friend. She also have this pesky way of retaining things and traits that should be erased, banished, in the world forever!
My mom? She isn’t used to see my room cluttered even though my room is always messy and can be compared to be the same as a pigsty (not really, but close). I just had this argument with her and I think I’m going to freak-out or I’ll just bang my head on the monitor to avoid more damage. I know I have the fault here, but I am so tired of all the nagging and the shouting. I’ve been trying not to be mad and think of very moronic things that I’ll do if I can’t contain her sermons.
I should be aware that things would always be in constant motion. It’s like the Earth, and the other planets. But the difference is they move in constant and unchanging paths. If they ever change, then it is after some long period of time. And I can’t think that people will change or stay the same because I wanted them to. I guess I’m not the ruler of their life.
*scream*
*freak-out*
*bang head on the monitor*
*die then wake-up*
Gah.
